Draw it forth

By K Geethanjali

Instead of cribbing about unpleasant realities, K Geethanjali decides to create a desirable one for herself by drawing them on paper

Acceptance never came easy to me. In fact at my workplace, I was known as the one who always faced any challenge with a “NO, not me”. Perhaps I had never really learnt how to breathe in life to the fullest. I have heard a master say that only those who offered resistance to life suffered from breathing problems. As I huffed and puffed through life asthmatically, I would tell myself sternly “Acceptance is the key.” As British-born philosopher and writer, Alan Watts says, “If you hold on to the breath you lose it. If you release it you will get a new one.” Talk about non-resistance.

But acceptance came hard when life was a drag. It was not only the challenges that life threw that were frustrating, but also the daily grind. Why did I have to accept all the rubbish that life dealt?

And then came an insight that made acceptance feel just right. While I thought things were happening to me I just could not accept the cruel cards life dealt. Then I stumbled on the truth that life was not happening to me. Life was only responding to the thoughts that I held about it. Now acceptance began to make sense.

If I was the creator of my reality, it meant that whatever showed up in my life was put there by me and only me in collaboration with the Universe. And only if I accepted it could I take full responsibility for it. And only if I took full responsibility for it could I heal it. As Seth (an entity channelled by Jane Roberts) would say, “We have got things backwards. We don’t have feelings because of events in our life. We create the events in our life because we have strong feelings and beliefs in our mind.”

Healing and acceptance began when I began to trace all that appeared in my life to the beliefs I held inside. Once when my dog Bruno messed up my new balcony in Chennai and I was on the verge of shouting at my spouse, I stepped back and paused. The usual response would have been “How could you adopt a big dog when you knew very well that we were shifting to a flat?” But if I go by the premise that I create my reality, others in my life are only instruments to help me create it. If the dog was there in my life I had drawn it forth. And it was pointless to blame others. I suddenly remembered my childhood craze for animals, and how though I had had an array of cats, I had been crazy about pups and had badgered my parents for a pup to no avail. My conscious mind was now showing me the practical difficulties involved in taking care of a dog in a flat, but my subconscious had drawn forth this experience as it still carried the memory of an unfulfilled desire of having a dog. It would have only known that such an experience had not been completed in my life and had obligingly drawn it forth!

Leaving Bangalore, the garden city, and coming to Chennai, my hometown, was another thing I found difficult to accept though it had been a conscious decision, once my son left for higher studies in the US.  I had my close relatives living in Chennai.

But I missed everything about Bangalore – the weather, the people, the malls. I would talk at length about my love for the garden city and complain about the heat of Chennai (the only thing my mind could find to complain about) to everyone I met till my sister remarked. “Life would be better for you and others if you accepted it. After all, it was your choice.”

I did another inventory and found the crux of the problem, which was that Bangalore held memories of my life with my son, who had grown up there. These memories were creating the distress. Once the reason became clear I could let go and make a new life in my old city.

Does it mean that we should passively accept all that we created unconsciously? Nope. That’s where our power lies. We change it if we really want to, by drawing forth a new reality. Seth talks about how our current reality is only one of many probable realities and how it is not solid or fixed and can be changed. How do you change it? By drawing forth other better realities by changing your core belief in that area. He gives an exercise. Take an area of your life you are not pleased with. Think of it only as one probable reality you have drawn forth because of a belief you held about it. Draw forth the version you want to see. For five minutes hold on to the belief which will draw forth the reality you want to see.

About this time I got an email from a website I had subscribed to. It was about a children’s book called Harold and the purple crayon. It was a simple book about Harold, a boy who went out for a walk. When Harold found that there was no moon, he just took out his purple crayon and drew one. “The whole book is about Harold’s great adventures scaling a mountain, soaring in a hot-air balloon and touring a city, all created by his ever-faithful purple crayon. It’s a powerful book because it demonstrates a great spiritual truth—we are the authors of our own lives. We draw every detail—even the dragons and the oceans we “accidentally” fall into…We all have that power,” explains Pam Grout  of pamgrout.com and writer of the  book E-squared. She adds that this book taught her more than any self-help book.

By drawing what we want, we give a clear command to the universe

Harold literally draws the things he desires to see in his life. This set me thinking. We have all heard of vision boards. Could this be something like that? When we draw out our desired pictures, our subconscious gets the message instantly and we draw it forth into our lives.

Maybe like Harold, literally drawing my wishes on paper would keep me focussed  for those five minutes that Seth suggested we put in. I realised that since our world is our projection anyway, why not draw it out clearly and draw it forth into our lives? The thing I love to draw the most is a loaded table with all my heart’s desires because my favourite psalm is Psalm 23. “He prepareth a table before me in presence of my enemies… My cup runneth over.”

My sister and I decided to try drawing our reality when we were going through difficult patches – the worst in our lives. I would then click pictures of my latest intended creation and Whatsapp it to my sister. Sitting in the hospital seeing her husband through the worst time of their life, she too began to draw all her heart’s desires – perfect health, happy family outings.

It’s too soon to talk about results. I am not even waiting for my new world to show up because I know it is around the corner. It is the cosmic law. As I draw or doodle, my vibrations increase. Instead of focussing on the problems that are bogging me, I am focussing on what is possible. This is what is meant by accepting what one had already created and simultaneously doing something positive to change it.

Our world – we create it individually with our thoughts, beliefs and feelings. Even in our scriptures we are taught that there are as many Brahmandas as there are individuals. Only when we know that the world is a mirror showing us our deepest beliefs can we readily accept our creations. With it comes the breathtaking realisation – If I am a powerful creator anyway why not create things I would love to accept. Turn the tables on life and take charge of life.

I now enjoy drawing forth my world with my doodles and co-creating with God. And yes, I breathe easier because of it.

As the saying goes “The best way to predict the future is to invent it!”